The Prayer

Call me the prayer, Perhaps I don't know well of my religion knowledge, but no matter what I do just please categorized me as the prayer.

Perhaps I'm not a good person, and I knew Im not, Im a bad person in society, a selfish and a hedonist person, I don't know and not too enthusiastic with what happened to my neighbors or my friends. I'm the villain in the movie, Im the joker in the Dark Night, or perhaps the two face. But is it wrong for me to take this path? as a religious person, as a good wannabe person.

It is a shame for me as a person that born in religious environment but don't know much about my religion, Everybody around my neighborhood in surabaya is great alquran reader, some of them able to read arabic with no harokat, they remember a lot of praying reading and the how to's. While me.. Im nothing in my religious view.

But that's me, it's already happened to my life, there are so many regret in this life and I don't want to be in that regret forever. Just receive me as the way I am, with the all that I have.

I fix my life pieces by pieces, I rebuild my career again, and thanks god I've been in this office and feel received with all the aspect of it. Today is exactly my a year plus two month in this office, it is the longest time for me for working, and I hope it will happen to me for long time, for longer years forward. I was moving and moving again in my previous works, I don't want do that again, at least as far as this company need me, I will not search for other place.

Im a humble person, Im not expecting to be reach and success, I already used to live simple. Im a happy with the all that I have. I have great family that will always receive me when I back to Surabaya. I have a lot of friends, well it's not as much as you have I guess, but I have a lot of friends. And I have a great job, I build great application for users. I am an engineer, I dedicate may days for building software, I am an enthusiastic person to technology, Im a good learner.

I said to myself that working is praying, living is praying, Im not a holy person that clean of everything, and as an ordinary person I am a full of mistake, full of sin. It is far more easy for me to write it beautifully, I know it hard to do in real life, but I feel so in religious atmosphere right now, is it a mistake for me that I write what I want to do in my own life? I know I will far... far away for this ideal life, I just want to write it, perhaps I can read it again and useful for me or somebody else.

Trip@Bandung

Last weekend me and office mates had trip to bandung, we had great time spend everything together.

Friday night at 1 am, we went from office, in case we wait panji doing his work on uploading production, actually he plan to go in saturday morning and I will go with him because in that time many works to do. It's about 00.30 am, and I already from home to take some clothes so I went back to the office, and we wait for rahmat that also joining us after had futsal. We went by two cars, Anita's and Kamil's car. One is go to Hendri's home first to take some clothes, and one again went to Herman's home to take clothes and Nintendo Wii.

And then we meet again in alfamart for buy something like soap, bread, and beverage. We then change our sits in car, there are 16 people of us, I was in Kamil's car with Kamil, Rere, Herman, Erna, mas Roy, Rahmat and Danik. While Anita's car there were Eka, Iqbal, Anita, Yanti, Mulan, Meli, Panji, and Hendri. It's about 3 hours until we were in Bandung in vila Istana Bunga. So it's about 4 am. The place is on the hill, and its so cold.

I cannot sleep while Im in the car, after in the place also cannot sleep, in the morning we doing many things, some of us were playing wii, me and rahmat take a walk near the house, some of us trying to get sleep, some others just talk each other in the tv room. we wait until about 9 am to take a shower, there are three bathroom one is in the second floor, and the other is in the ground. and there four sleeping room, three is in second floor, and one is in the ground floor, each of them has double bed so it's fit all of us.

When the sun is rising most of us take a walk to get a lot of pictures with a lot of styles. and some others is locked in house for a nap. And then Eka and some others buy some meals for breakfast.

In the day we went to cihampelas (or some place like that with full of stores sorrounding), and then we lunch in mcD in there. I buy panas special, rice, slice of fried chicken, scrumbled egg and a glass of coke. And then we back home in the afternoon, some of us take a bath, but I did not, because I choose take nap because we gonna had trip in midnight and Im not take a sleep yet.

In about 7 pm, we go to kampung daun, a beautiful places with full of eating places. I bought fried banana cheese and hot tea and then we go to Brebes restaurant to buy chicken barbeque. And then we go to ciater, a place with warm water for soaking. We were in ciater in about 1 am, the place is open for 24 hours and the funny thing is it's peak hour is in the midnight.

We were back to home when dawn. we take sleep for tomorrow agenda, actually we had plenty of schedule in the last day, like visiting gedung sate and to strawberry garden, but the fact is we spent last day happily in home by play wii, or cards, or watching motoGP.

In the midle of the day we eat padang food, I eat chicken. and then we went home, in the middle of the way we stop in burengreng for eating batagor, and then we stop again in primarasa store to buy goodies, I buy a box of brownies, and I take it to the office in monday.

Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy

"I can dim the lights and sing you songs full of sad things
We can do the tango just for two "

That is the first two lines of the lyrics of "Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy", song from Queen but sang again by Jason Mraz. I love the lyrics, I love the music, I also have the original one from Queen.

I remember that past few years ago I buy pirate cd from street when I work in my previous office when I live in Cilandak, I new in this town, alone, donot have computer, so I buy radio+cd player, and I bought the cd, it company me when Im sad, it company me when I feel alone.

Now I heard again that song, I have the mp3 of a lot of Jason Mraz songs, one of them is this song. Here is the full lyric, I copy paste from a site:

I can dim the lights and sing you songs full of sad things
We can do the tango just for two
I can serenade and gently play on your heart strings
Be your valentino just for you

Ooh love - ooh loverboy
What're you doin' tonight, hey boy
Set my alarm, turn on my charm
That's because I'm a good old-fashioned lover boy

Ooh let me feel your heartbeat (Grow faster, faster)
Ooh ooh can you feel my love heat
Come on and sit on my hot-seat of love
And tell me how do you feel right after-all
I'd like for you and I to go romancing
Say the word - your wish is my command

Ooh love - ooh loverboy
What're you doin' tonight, hey boy
Write my letter
Feel much better
And use my fancy patter on the telephone

When I'm not with you
I think of you always
(I miss those long hot summer nights)
I miss you
When I'm not with you
Think of me always
Love you - love you

Hey boy where do you get it from
Hey boy where did you go ?
I learned my passion in the good old
Fashioned school of loverboys

Dining at the Ritz we'll meet at nine precisely
One two three four five six seven eight nine o' clock
I will pay the bill, you taste the wine
Driving back in style, in my saloon will do quite nicely
Just take me back to yours that will be fine (Come on and get it)

Ooh love, (There he goes again just like a good old-fashioned lover boy)
Ooh loverboy
What're you doin' tonight, hey boy
Everything's all right
Just hold on tight
That's because I'm a good old-fashioned fashioned lover boy

Spent holiday as usual

Today is the third day of me being idle at home in jakarta, same as usual workers from other town, I rent a room near office in a house, big house in case it contains twenty rooms for rent beside rooms for the owner, the owner contains parents and three children. It quit expensive for me for the room, but in case many of my office friends living in the same house, so I never search other place for moving.

Last two days I spent times with sleeping a lot and watching tv a bit. I watch tv in a kind of living room, with friends, I watch the program that choosen by them. Last night I watch serie A between Milan and Atalanta. only the second half, in case I went to the tv room in 10pm because I cannot sleep. It's been so long time for me for wathing footbal again. and watch tv also, I so rarely watch it since working here.

the last score was 3 - 0 for milan, all of the goals made by philippo inzaghi, the first goal made in the first half, wich is Im not watch yet. the others is ofcourse made in the last half, with normally without diving in case he is fame of with doing unfair action AFAIK.

Nowadays milan is full of a stars, many of them are old but still great players, beside philippo inzaghi, milan has andrey shevchenco which is not quite showing good performance in his only for about ten minuites play. and the it has david beckham which still give precission ball passing, and then andrea pirlo with his energic stamina as usual, and also abiatti as goal keeper. and as the young gun it has pato which is sometimes try to make a goal but fails again and again. And also I saw kaka as supporter, which is not played perhaps his still injured. Nice personality of kaka with his formal dress, I think he has potentiality to be a celebrity same as beckam. And also I saw victoria, becham's wife supporting milan.

One thing I want to say is, in the last minuite, very very last minuite beckham was changed by new young innocent player which if Im not wrong heard is from uruguay. and the funny thing is after he entered the field the game is over, then he turn out the field as other player did, he only smiling. I think that just the scenario, how to sell beckham, footbal, and the country of that young player, the beckham replacer. yes, that is my opinion, they want to sell and shows to us the mega-shining the world of celebrity-football so we want to be in there also, at least dream of it.

rrrggh.. btw after finishing the serie a match, I saw metro tv, it's the "zona 80an", only for perhaps ten minuites, because the show already started on 10 pm in which I still watch for milan, the show as the title is about the 80 stuff, in last night episode, it invite the indonesian 80s movie stars. There is Rano karno, Paramitha Rusadie, Yessie Gusman, Rico Tampati, Ita Mustafa, and one again that I don remember.

They were adorable, rano is sometimes told a joke to the audience or the yessie gusman, when they were asked by audience in the ask-answer session about how far they'we near in relation between in the 80 era in case both of them involved in many movies such as galih and ratna ? hwehehe, i think everybody loves the movie. Rano said that Yesy should answer that question because the question is too hard for him because it ask about two think that different, far and near, and then yessy said that both of them are far from eye near in heart.

today is maulud nabi holiday, im not working now, but after saturday and sunday I spent in home, I go to office today for internet. Actually last night I told by my mother to read solawat a hundred times for maulud and already did it last night. Anyway thanks for reading if you're still read this note ^_^

Okay... Im a book reader right now

in case a buddy of mine commenting about my older profile that Im not reading book for long time and never finished when reading, last week I bought a book from book store, there's only few book stores in this town, I think there are three only, two of them Gramedia, in WTC and SMS, the other is Gunung Agung in Melati Mas, I went to Gramedia WTC. Im in BSD FYI, small town Jakarta nearby.

First, there are a couple of books interest me, "the lenovo gate" or something and biography mr. Habibie, the first book is story about how the chinese IT company named lenovo buy IBM or IBM products or something, I newly known that lenovo is the company name from China, I thought before that it was one of the IBM product. the second book is ordinary biography of someone, but it make special because it tell me about someone I admire.

I opened the lenove gate pages by pages, I read the comments from some people in the back of the book, I open the page that have photos, it's about four pages, the first photo is an old photo, it says that it was the first building of lenovo, it very small building, square of walls and I think it has no roof or something as change of roof. it just pathetic building, and perhaps it just a hiperbolic from the writer. and then the other picture is also old picture that capture the lenovo employees standing up in front of newly build apartment. the caption of the photo said that they were very happy because they will get apartment, and that the first time n Chine history that a company give his employee an apartment. I forgot the year, I think both of those pictures happened in eighties. the second book I cannot open because it sealed, but there are a lot of photos which is I like.

Beside the price of those books are expensive for me, it's abouot 85 rupiahs. and it is too thick for me to read, I will never finished it I think. and the first book is too heavy reading for me, it is a business book which is I will need extra concentration for it.

I told to myself that I need light book, easy reading, such a stury or novels. So I went to the novel area. I saw some names that familiar to me, such as Agatha Cristie, Jon Grisham, and one again but sorry I forget. And then the titlle of the books are much of them is movie title, such as the firm with tom cruise, to die for with nicole kidman, and pelican brief with julia robert. near of them are newly heard book something that 1001 nights story, and some again about taj mahal and some related love story of taj mahal. and then near them again are indonesian novels such as Marga T, NH Dini, Dewi Lestari, and more cicklit and teenlit that the title are so catchy.

I read the write back of some books, I think and think again so I chose one of the John Grisham (is the name is right?) titled "Runaway Jury". I think all of his novels are law related, It about the court of the cigarette company versus people that disagree of cigarette that representatived by an old man that already died because of cancer in case of he already consume cigarette for years.

I still read until chapter 8 I guess from 44 chapters, The first part of the story is the recruiting jury, it happened in small town in america, I forgot the name, but the fact is the writer did live in that town when he write the story, and in many place of the parts there are a lot of detailed description of places such as apartments, roads, and specially the court.

In the first page I only found so few of thank you statements, for people in that town and for corrector of the novel, one of them is from oxford, no surprise the novel is famous and received by international public. and I think you guys already heard or even watch one of his movie from the novel.

The first part of the novel mainly tells about of one of the jury Nicholas "something" I forget, he is misterious, smart person, 27 years old same as me, he work in computer store, and confess as a student and ever study law for couple of semesters. he live in small unexpected apartment because he moved because need to hide his identity and history.

In that novel also tell the both side of the plaintiff and defendant are work hard to get the list of the jury. they spy their live, take pictures from them, entering their home without their permission, they have all the jury data so from almost 200 candidates there are I think twelve selected jury and three for backups I guess.

I forgot the details, I don't know exactly if I like the story or not, but it friend me while Im waiting the train when I went home last thursday, and I loose 50 grants for it.

being important is necessary, but being usefull is more preferable

just as the fame statement that sayz the best person is the most useful of him in the community, in the environment, yup.. in this late of night i just want to say something, with someone it should, but sadly I only can write to you, dear notes.. perhaps I should write it in more private room, but I think it's okay for me to write in here, in case I hope everybody can get a value or keep in correcting each other especially for me by this note.

quite naive for a person like me that don't have vision in life, I think everybody should have, but the fact is I don't have that kind of vision, a kind of solid, great of vision, I just following the life, not a kind of that vision person.

connecting with vision, this day I met that statement again from mailing list, that the best person is the most useful of him in his life, what a short statement that since I ever heard of it years ago, it give me strength to doing my life.

I was in bachelor joining one of the campus activity, and heard that statement from a girl that ever won the science contest, it's not about love between boy and girl, she's already boyfriend at that time anw, but she said that in that event, it's not the science contest, it's in different event, anyway.. it's give me a confidence in doing my way, I hope I still in this way, that I don't expect something in doing my activities, I encourage myself for doing everything in case for praying, I already wrote that in my profile that my working is my praying, I hope by having this paradigm I've got the best result.

Not only in the office but hope in my entire activities, I get the best result, and I believe that I already get the best from the lord, god already give the best for me, in every single part of my life, if I fail in something, I believe that fail is the best for me in that time, if I cannot get something that I dream, I believe will get the better in the future. All I need to do is trying and doing my best, how far is my best is how I get the result.

But the truth is I expect nothing from that result, Im just a simple person that no need to worry of everything as I believe that I already do my best for my environment.

somebody loves my writes

somebody loves my writes, im happy to hear that, hope this note would loveable too... but remembering the movies such as the libertine or shakespeare in love, those two movies is about a writer, those poeple is actually hard to get an idea, shakespear needs the girl to create romeo and juliet, I forget the exact name but it played by gwyneth, while the libertine is about a psycho writer that fall in love with her drama student, I think both of them is psycho, not a happy life indeed, especially johnny depp, the player in the libertine, he died in tragic way, dump in the bad place with bad sick. actually he has beautiful wife, which love him so much, she said "Im your final result" when got him dying, and kissed him for the last time. but he strongly leave her and want to attend her favourite student to play drama in london stage.

Im not too ambigious and know myself, don't want to be a writer, only tell you what I remember, please forget my first paragraph, it's too far away from reality, I mean the point is great books actually made by hardwork, by hard-thought, not by sim sala bim way.

In the first day of this year I attend the the event in TMII, Attiin mosque, great mosque, Im not too interest in politics, but in case when we enter the mosque when we put our sandals or shoes in lockers there's an autograph named H.M Soeharto, I don't know the detail of building, but it's big one, the event is attended by 60-70 thousands, it's only 2 floor I guess, but wide field with some fountains and towers, just kind of parks, sadly I don't have camera. aniway thank you mr President for the leadership of the pasts and the beautyful mosque ofcourse.

Im not gonna tell you about the mosque, I want to tell you about one of the speaker, it's the writer of ayat-ayat cinta, Im not see the movie yet, not read the book yet, Im not a book reader, his name is ustaz Habiburrahman, I first saw him in that place, Im not too know him personally before, but the point is he is a writer, he tell us that when shoot the movie, on of the crew is arabian or some where there has a brother from Gaza Palestina, Whole life his brother is in palestine, never goes out from there, and sadly the Israeli seduce him by cutting his both hands and both legs, and because of that he went to egipt for medical treatment, after the treatment, his family suggest him to stay a while in Egypt, he refuse that, he want to go back to Gaza, whatever happened. I feel enthusiastic when hearing his speech, and feel the spirit of the room.

Im not quite sure about the relations between the paragraphs, actually don't quite know what is the theme of this note, and I wonder if you still read this note :D, perhaps I just want to say that writer is great person, and I guess so many of us dreaming being writer, although only a note or blog, and I think it's not need to be a shame to do that.

The Dark Knight

Doesn't matter if the topic is not up to date, I post this because I newly became a fan of TDK (The Dark Knight) in facebook, a movie about batman that I watched with friends in the cinema few months ago. Doesn't matter if this blog is not java related again, I just want to write something.

I remember the most is when harvey and rachel is separated and and tight by a rope in the room full of gazoline, connected by a phone, and harvey ask rachel to calm down and trying to help her, and then he fall to the chemical things, and then their crying a lot, and then rachel said "yes harvey ... yes... my answer is yes", in case harvey asked ... Read Moreher to married him when in the party, but rachel said no. Its so romantic time I think. And I guess it's the sentence that everybody dreams in their life.

and then the bat-man is come to help harvey, harvey said "no... why you're here...". so voila.. there's no more rachel, rachel is exploded. yes harvey.. you're right why batman is there. If I were you, I would hope batman help rachel.

Entering the Office while User is in Holiday

yup, this is me and my team, we're in the office after yesterday is new year, and now is friday, and tommorrow is saturday and sunday. but we so generous to be in the office today.

but the fact is I already finished my work long before new year, my last module is finished and ready to test, my bug is zarro in bugzilla, so here I am playing with you, facebook, and I will copy this note to my blog, because poor my blog, it's forgotten by me.

Im in Permata Bintaro right now, the 9th floor, AFAIR Permata Bank was Bank of Bali, it merged with other bank(s), It have three big office building, one is here in Bintaro, one in Sudirman, I don't knoe the rest, here in Bintaro is the IT center of Permata. But not exactly for the IT becaouse some floor is for marketing people.

I've been here for 2 months, date of 5th will be exactly my second months. it just an ordinary boring IT project with all detailed technical thinks that I should tell you. But my project called WBS (WholeSales Banking System), When we buy car we buy it from a store, the store is get from distributor, each store or distributor have branch, and it have products, and type, and mean while the store or store branch, or the distributor (I don't knoe exactly) have facility, and sub facility, and the bla and the bla.

Actually today in bundaran HI held a mass demo/action for Palestina, I actually want to join it, unfortunately I must inthe office. I asked my senior in class is there any similar event in saturday or sunday, he said no. Poor palestina, I take a fan or member of group that dedicated for palestina. long live palestina, although im not a good guy, but if I may, Ill support you for your better.

BTT (Back To Topic), in fact here in permata, only few Permata person that came in the office, only one or two, only the Sigma rooms that crowd with people. Sigma have two room, one is for WBS and JF with mr Sufyan, one is for RMS with mr. Benny, mr. Benny is my PM in my last project, LBU/CBR (Common Bank Reporting).

The non-boring thing is today we wear free costume, some of us wearing sandals, polo shirt, or jeans, I wear my new tight jeans that I bought from kaskus, peter says sorry denim, it's local made, not too comfort, but I feel like the rolling stone right now :D, it's rock!!

And the other good thing is we bought lunch today, we order the padang food, from Sederhana, I order packet 3, it's chicken, egg, some padang vegetables, and a slice of melon. and today we will go home fast, no more than 5 pm, great!!, because I do nothing here, code nothing.

Watching Indonesia Loose

This is my first non-java post in this blog, ok I promise to post the LDAP continues in next post, but it have been so long time that Im not blogging, and yesterday I went to senayan and watch the match between Indonesia and Thailand, and I cannot wait to write the story, especially my fellow already report it in his blog, I want to comment it but need to post my version first.

OK, the story begin with ordinary working days in office, start wake in the morning, waiting for transportation together, and at the office I code here, fix there, make this, build that, etc.. until late, yes until so late, very late, sometimes I went home in midnight, that's why I never open this blog, cause today's project it so consuming my times. and then suddenly once a day irfani ask my boss to go home early for watching soccer in senayan, so the next day I also ask my boss for follwing irfani watch the match and I was approved.

So me and Irfani went home at 5 pm, we walk to Bintaro Junction for the bus, it's Trans Bintaro that goes to Ratu Plaza-Senayan. I am in Permata Bintaro anyway not in DESA BSD. So We buy ticket, @IDR 12 thousands. While on the way, Irfani phone/phoned by his friend(s) doing the next things, that buy 9 tickets first, The person who buy the ticket is Ijar, and also told him that we gonna go to FX first for praying Maghrib. Ok, it should be the binusian event, Irfani was joining the Computer Club of Binus when he bachelor in Binus, and oftenly they had event such as watching cinema or soccer, and that day I was joinining hang out with them.

So we turn down from the bus on Patal I senayan and went to FX, after praying Maghrib Irfani took some money in ATM BCA and there already Amirul waiting for us, and I guess he already pray Maghrib there, and then three of us went to Senayan, in front of the stadium, Irfani want to buy 3 T-Shirts and 1 slayer that so many sellers had, he bought for his friends in Bali, the Indonesian team one ofcourse, and there's absolutely no Thailand costume indeed, so do Amirul, Its too expensive, the material so thin, its hot material, it so uncomfortable when I used it for sleeping anyway, but it will feels great if we support our team with appropriate costume, so I bought it also.

And then we found Bayu in the near of the door, I think its the door 1 of the stadium, and Bayu didn't meet the others, in case tje tickets is bought by Ijar. In the meantime we heard the anthom songs loudly, so we run found them, they're in door 5, it feels like rounding the stadium, moreover I brought my notebook, oh yah, Im not telling you that I newly bought notebook from kaskus, I should make the post for it, coz it needs time to encourage myself doing internet transaction, and the most I want to tell is because this laptop is gaming laptop, I very care of it.

At last we found them, so we're in full formation that time, there is me, Irfani, Amirul, Bayu, Afi, Ijar, De_Berg, and IW. But then we're panic, because the people is so crouded want to enter the stadium, it's the Gate V. We're in quequeing unformatly, the lineman said "two-two" loudly want us for quequeing in two row (not with two column such as in a table in my boring old style project that im working right now ofcourse :D), and suddenly Irfani call me to out from the queue to through the small door beside the gate. So we're through that door and we entered the stadium, our positions is exactly behind the Indonesian team goalkeeper, so many supporters wearing red or white shirt and attributes crowding, but Amirul is separated from us, when in the queue, he already entered the gate.

The fact is we're not sit on the bench, we're squat on it, newly I know about this, I was thought everybody in the stadium are sitting down, but no, we're squat on our feet. And oftenly we then stand up over the bench when our team want to make agoal, for yelling the referee or doing the wave. I feel enthusiastic when doin the wave, when there is a wave, I watch the wave more rather than watch the match, but it only one-two wave, and then stop, never happen many times. And poor the referee, we often yelling him when punished our player, but ofcourse we gave him applause when doing the contrary. Each time we got opportunity, we gave applause, and contrary we said "whooooo" if Thailand attacking.

I love when yelling, when stand up over the bench and raise my hands and hold my head on, when doing disappointing because our shoot didn't make a goal, when singing "Indonesia ayo ayo, kita pengen maju bersama" or something, I love being one of in the crowded.

At the first half, we loose in attack, so many opportunities Thainland's had, fortunately we have great goalkeeper, Markus something, I don't know the exact name, he did many ball savings, but in the last half, we the condition is contrary, Indonesia got so many opportunities, and I remember actually we already made a goal, but it annuled by the referree, I t should be a goal, there was no offside or other foult forgodsaken.

To be honest Im not a football mania, that day I don't know who vs who, after the first half I still suppose that it's Indonesia vs Vietnam because in the edge of the field there are sponsors, one of them is Heigl Vietnam, I thougth it was the Vietnamese that match with Indonesia, at last I knew that was Thailand from other supporter. I newly known that it AFF cup or something, it's because the daily working I left the news. And the most embarising thing is I don't know the match result, I suppose that 0-0, when were going home me and Irfani asked by someone about the result, I said it's 0-0, but the fact is it's 0-1 for Thailand, the only goal is made in the first minuites of the match, before we entered the stadium. Yes, Im watching Indonesia is loosing, but Im not aware of that, perhaps not only in the stadium, in real life also.

HelloWorld!!

Hello World!!
Good Bye Moon!!

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